For quite a while I’ve felt like my stream/stream overlay didn’t really capture any of who I was, which is something I’ve wanted to work on since I don’t interact with the stream at all while I’m practicing music. So I’ve been cleaning it up and adding some informative things here and there, but mostly memes lol.
Anyways, I came up with a record player template to share some of my favorite moments in film, and while adding the ending to Perfect Days to that template, I was at first glimpse a bit disappointed with how it turned out and thought about deleting it. I thought the record player kinda made the lead character look like a clown, was unflattering and didn’t compliment the scene.
But then I realized, he is a clown to many people, maybe even most. He’s a clown for living his life simply and passionately, that is, how he wants to live it. Even with some people I’m very close to, I know they see me as a clown when it comes to my goals and passions. And before settling on music, my direction prior to that was clownish, and if I chose anything else besides music, I’m sure it would be perceived that way as well.
It seems that when you want to live your life how you want to live it, there can be a strong, usually negative and sometimes forcefully so, reaction to that.
It’s a bit late, and this writing is feeling more and more like procrastination. I’ll finish by saying I’m glad I didn’t delete the Perfect Days scene, and I’m very happy with how that added layer of subtext worked its way in!